My visions-Ch.8(The Un predicted kiss)
Back home,Michael was being scolded by his father once again.He sits down on the living room chair,hanging his head while his dad glared at him from the couch.....It was silent,and nothing could be heard.Michael's mom was sitting next to him,rubbing his ear.His father finally broke the silence.
"Son....Do you know why we go to Church?"
His father asked him.Michael still hung his head,but nodds in silence.
"Michael.I only want what's best for you,you know that...But I'm starting to question your motives."
He asks,still glaring.Michael finally looks up at him,in worry.
"What do you mean?"
He asks.His father sighs.
"I mean that,I'm seeing changes in you.Changes I never thought were in you."
His dad says.Michael saddens,and looks away from his dad's sight.His mom was still trying to comfort him,and was rubbing his hand.
"Sweety...We know how much you like this Robert person.We also think that your friends in your band is very good.We're just worried of your decisions,that's all."
His mom says.Michael was still frowning.
"Michael.God wants your soul to be pure.We have always followed his word,and looked ahead to a new and better life because of him.But if you're not willing to let this new "Persona" of yours go.Then you will go to hell.It's as simple as that."
His dad says.Michael's feelings changed in an instant,and was gritting his teeth.
"Why?...Why's it gotta be like that?"
He asks.His father kept a serious face.
"It's what's normal."
He responds.
"I hate normal!!"
Michael shouts.His mom frowned at his reaction.
"Michael."
She says in a concerned tone.
"Son,you don't know what you're getting yourself into.That kind of lifestyle is not what we expect of you.We only wish for what's best for you."
His father says.Michael got angrier.
"Then let me choose for myself.I hate the fact that people like me are always looked down on cause of how "different" we are.Is that so wrong?! What have we ever done to them?"
Michael says.His father sighs once again.
"That's why we wish to protect you from this.Not everyone is gonna be happy with your choice.That will lead to disaster,like what happened earlier at the theater."
He says.
"I don't care dad!! I like who I am,so why can't you? I'm tired of this!! Sometimes I wish I could just leave here,and never look back."
Michael says.His mom was almost to the point of tears.His dad closed his eyes,and got up.Michael was still clenching his fists in anger,and still hung his head.
"If that's how you feel,then you leave me with no choice."
His father says.Michael looks up at him worried,and a little shaken.His mom shook her head,knowing what was about to be said.
"Michael...We're going to move you to a bording school,if you don't stop this charade."
He says.Michael's eyes widened,and he lifted off of his seat.
"WHAT!? Dad you can't do that!!"
Michael shouts in hurt.
"I can and I will.This for you son,remember that.I didn't wish for it to escalate to this point,but you are my son,and I won't lose you to this...That's all I have to say on this matter.Now good night."
He says as he starts to head upstairs.Michael was left crying on his mom's shoulder,and holding onto her as if he was gonna fall.His mom hugged him for a while,and was almost as disappointed as he was.
"It's not fair.It's not fair."
He says,still sobbing.
"I'm sorry sweety...I'm so sorry."
She says to comfort him.Back at Clarus and Shaun's house,Shaun on the couch watching tv,while Clarus was in his room,thinking....He sits silently on his bed,then reaches for his nearby drawer.He opens it,looking through stuff,and grabs an old photo.He looks at it,and chuckles.It was a picture of him,Roy,Shaun,Kim,and Michael during freshman year.He sets his eyes on Kim on the picture for a while....He stares at it deeper and deeper,then puts it away.He remembers Kim's words earlier this afternoon.
"Sometimes when you have good dreams,they come true."
He says.Clarus thinks for a little while longer,and heads downstairs to see Shaun.He was still watching TV,but notices Clarus.
"Yo what's up?"
The canine greets.Clarus grins at him.
"Not much."
Clarus responds.Shaun looks over at him and notices his expression.
"Dude.You got that look again.What's on your mind?"
Shaun asks.Clarus grins,and crosses his arms.
"Hey Shaun? Do you think it's easy for them?"
He asks.Shaun looks at him confused.
"Who?"
Shaun asks.
"The gay community.You think it's easy being them?"
Clarus asks.Shaun takes a deep breath,and turns down the TV.
"Shit,I'm not sure,since I've never been that way.I'm asuming so,cause of how the world treats them.That would suck to live a life like that you know?"
Shaun says.Clarus clenches his fists,but was calm.
"Really? But....They didn't do anything wrong.All they wanna do is live with who they are."
He responds.Shaun scratches his head.
"I don't know what to tell you,man.It's stupid I know.I'm not much of a philosopher but I will say this about them.They are who they are.Nothing can change that.All the shit they go through sort of shows how determined they are to be themselves.That's what I think anyways."
Shaun finishes.Clarus grins,then leaves.
"Hey wait a second,why did you bother asking me that anyways?"
He asks,but turns around on the couch to find that he was gone.Clarus walked over to the bus station to get a ride to Kim's neighborhood.It was a quick ride,considering the distance.But the ride itself gave Clarus some time to think.He kept thinking about Shaun's view on the matter,and considered alot of it.
"Determined to just be us...How long have I hid it from him? The 4 years since I've known him actually..This feeling..It's the anxiety of the whole thing..My feelings for him haven't changed...I think I'm ready...I really am."
He says as he sat on the bus,tward Kim's.The bus stopped in front of his neighborhood,and he got off.As the bus took off,he took a deep breath,and looked down the street.
"You're here,randomly."
A familiar voice says,behind him.Clarus looks behind him,and sees Kim.The charismatic,orange cat of his dreams stood there,face to face with him.The shy black wolf smiles,and walks tward him.
"Hey.I actually needed to talk to you about something."
He says.Kim continues to grin,and nodds.
"I was just on my way to the store,but I can spare some time."
He responds.Clarus,and Kim started to walk down the street,the opposite way from Kim's house.Along the way,Clarus had his hands in his pockets and didn't make any eye contact with Kim,who was walking,enjoying the scenery.He looks over at Clarus,and kept grinning.
"So,what did you wanna talk about?"
He asks,still walking.Clarus takes a deep breath,and looks up at the sky.
"I haven't been entirely truthful with you and the guys."
Clarus says.Kim was confused.
"What do you mean?"
He asks.
"I'm not who I say I am.You all have this image of me as this odd,and carefree guy with no worries,but I have alot of worries actually."
Clarus expresses.Kim giggles.
"Well you certainly don't show it.What kind of worries?"
The curious cat asks.Clarus turned from his sight completely.
"Like my....Preference."
He says.Kim glares at him,and they stopped in front of a bench.
"So....You're?-
"Yes...I am...Kim.I lied to you,and I've lied to the others.I don't know how long I was gonna keep this up,but I had to tell someone."
He said as he sits down on the bench.Kim kept looking down on him,glaring.
"How long have you been like this?"
Kim asks.Clarus was twiddling his fingers,and was looking down.
"For 4 years."
He responds.Kim grins.
"4 years? That's the exact same time you met us...And me."
Kim says.Clarus looks up at him,worried,and looked back down.
"I.-
"Clarus...Why didn't you just come out and say that you were gay?"
Kim asked.Clarus,kept looking down.
"Cause I didn't want the guys to know.Hell,I didn't even want Michael to know,and he's open with it.I just wanted to lock it away,never to be expressed again."
Clarus says.Kim sits donw next to him.
"Is it so bad to express how you feel?"
Kim says.Clarus still didn't make eye contact with him.
"Kim....I just....-
Kim touched his shoulder next to his,and looked at him deeper.
"Clarus....Clarus,look at me."
Kim demanded.Clarus slowly lifted his head back up,and stared at Kim's face.He still loved that his eyes were being blocked by his orange,and straightened hair.That's part of why he liked him.His cool exterior.Kim pulled his hair back a bit,revealing his green eyes and looked stared at him in concern.
"You think it's easy for me too? I'm not who you guys think either."
He says with a grin.Clarus looked at Kim in shock.
"Kim...You're?-
Kim puts his finger over his mouth,and got closer to him.To the point of making Clarus' heart race a thousand paces,and making his blush,show even more.Kim kept his hair pulled back as he leaned in forward to the black wolf's face.
"We all wear masks Clarus.But I think it's time we removed them to show our true faces."
He says as his lips connected with Clarus'.The kiss lasted for a while.For a second,it felt like Clarus was having another one of his dreams,and visions again.But this was real...This was happening...And it can never...Leave his head.