Why would you do this?
#5 of I'm Real (scales & wings)
ok heres chapter 5 i know it will be a bit shorter than the others but i'm hoping to make up for it with chapter 6, i had to answer the obvious question so here you go Enjoy
Chapter 5
Why would you do this?
My eyes closed as I awaited my fate; I'm sorry Tye that it had to end this way, at least you won't have to see me like this
"I think you've had enough..." the figure said
"Then what are you waiting for" I said quietly
"Look at me; don't you know who I am Dachii?"
I looked up my eyes still a little blurred from the tears, the figure's shape slowly refocused and when I saw who it was I was even more saddened
"Carlos" I whispered "I guess this means... you really know how dangerous I am... and now I guess you have another reason to get rid of me" I said, what were the chances the one person to find me had to be Tye's father, I bet he would put me through torture before killing me... even though my life felt like torture enough
I felt a hand holding my muzzle as it lifted my head up to look at him in the eyes; his eyes had no hate, no anger, only concern
"You really don't know what's going on then" he smirked ever so slightly
He let my head drop as I looked down I was in shock, Tye's body was fading into nothing
"Tye!" I yelled as it vanished before me, why did he disappear? Was it all in my head?
Carlos stood me up and held out his hand
"Are you ready to face the real world?" he asked
"What?" I didn't understand, I thought this was my reality... the world that I know... I've never been to
A door appeared behind us, it looked just like the one I had in the lab
I think now I understand... but... does this mean...?
My thoughts were interrupted by Carlos pulling me through the door
When we went through felt like I was slammed in the face by air as we emerged in the hall way
I looked at myself I was small again... bummer I really liked being big
Before I could say anything Carlos grabbed me and picked me up and took me to the testing room
Seriously this was getting weird, was I in the simulator the whole time? But it seemed so real, I had left this place and I had done things that I don't think I'll get over
"Dachii, tell me are you alright?" Carlos asked me
I was pulling a blank, what was I supposed to say, I really couldn't say I was fine or ok because I wasn't I felt terrible everything I had done I learn how dangerous I was and how my emotions swayed Tye into pain
"no" I sat on the floor, I covered my eyes with my hands "I still don't fully understand, what's going on?" I asked
"I told you, this was a terrible idea!" Carlos yelled at the others in the room who were looking at a few monitors
"Carlos...please just tell me what just happened"
Carlos pulled me up onto one of the tables so he could talk to me at eye level
"Dachii, all of the things that happened to you, since you think you left the lab, have been simulated, everything... up to just a few moments ago, I was against putting you through this but they had to do this to test you, they needed to know if you would grow emotions"
This is what they wanted; to test me... all of that pain ... what did I possibly get from going though that
I growled at him "so that's all you wanted, results! What do you think I feel like right now, I feel dead from the inside, I saw the only person I cared about die in front of me and because of me... even if it was fake, it still remains as painful as a real memory!" I yelled at all of them, I was out raged, why would they do this to me? I was just some project to them some little creature they could manipulate to get results... everything I went though was painful in the end, I think now its time they felt the way I did
I stood up on the table angry and out of my mind
I jumped forward landing on one of the scientists, I hit him with my claws, but I never pushed to far
After a few hits on this one man my conscience kicked in, I knew what I was doing was wrong I had to control myself I wasn't a wild creature I could control myself
I stepped off of the fear filled man and ran into a corner, why was I so scared... why did I still control myself even though they deserve the pain they put me through, why was I so desperate to prove something that I could never really reach?
As the other scientists gathered around the one I attacked, I lay curled up in the corner as I saw Carlos heading towards me
"I guess this means... your going to operate on me and make me controlled like that other dragon" I whimpered
Carlos petted my head, I started to calm down
"that was never real... it was part of the simulation to, they were trying to test your emotions, the other biological creations we made were all feral, they had no emotions... no memories... they used your memories of Tye to see how things would turn out, but they went to far, when they were hurting you, I had to say that was enough and I went to help you... I know I was to late the damage had already been done" he said crouching down and pulling me closer, he hugged me "I'm sorry for what you've been through, but you do have an option... if you want me to I can erase the memories from being in the simulator"
He was offering me a chance to forget everything, all of that pain, I just didn't understand, why put me through this in the first place?
"Will I ever see Tye?" I don't know why I asked that but it slipped out the question resurfaced when I realized this was true reality
"Yes... I just want you to be looked at by someone first and then we can go"
I was happy again even through all of that sadness from before I had a reason, I wouldn't be lonely, I still had a friend waiting for me
"Dachii ... do you want me to erase those bad memories?" he asked again
I took a moment to think about it, was it worth all that I had been through, did I really go through all of it for nothing, there had to be something I gained from this
"No... I feel that if I keep these memories, seeing the real Tye will be that much better"
Carlos smiled he knew that I was going to be fine eventually, even with scars in my mind I can still handle being real
"Dachii, one more thing" Carlos said before lifting me up "do you know how long it's been since Tye last saw you?"
"No..." I answered back
"It's been almost a year and when I went home to tell him of your progress, he's always so happy to hear about you... I don't think he's been the same since you left" Carlos said calmly
"Then why are we still here? I don't want to keep him waiting"
"There's still someone I need you to talk to first" he said pulling me down the hall
Who was this person that I had to see? Where they really any more important than Tye?
Carlos took me into a room with a couch and a swivel chair he lay me down on the couch and told me to wait here for someone to come and see me
I nodded and he left the room, I looked up at the plain ceilings my mind started to wander
Did I make the right choice? Maybe I should have erased those memories, I could feel them slowly creeping back into my mind, was my mind really that polluted?
I knew that there was a problem with my decision... what if I went insane? ... What if I hurt Tye
He wouldn't want me to think that way... but I couldn't help it, things like this really hurt and pain causes people to do things they would never really want to do
I heard foot steps I realized then the person I was supposed to meet had walked in
A female cheetah with a lab coat on and a clip board in her hands walked into the room
She was stunningly beautiful and it seemed that as she walked her spotted coat shimmered in the light
"Hello Dachii" she said, her voice was whimsical and harmonious, she sat down in the swivel chair and turned to face me
Her hazel eyes felt like they could take you to the abyss and back, I was mesmerized, what was going on?
I felt very strange, I was nervous but I wasn't scared of her
"h-hi" I stuttered back
she giggled I guess she caught my anxiety
"Well Dachii, I heard that you went through the emotions test... I'm going to check if you're alright" she pulled up her clip board and started asking me questions
"Do you feel ill or sick right now?"
"Not really" I answered but I never really knew what that was supposed to mean I had never been sick before
"Are you angry with any of the scientists?"
What kind of question was that? How could she not know?
"Yes they put me through torture!" I was trying to stay calm but I ended up yelling
She looked at me a little concerned, I was breathing heavily I was annoyed and afraid now
She pulled her chair closer before extending her paw towards me, she was a little hesitant but she then started to pet me and I instantly started to calm down
"It's understandable to be angry" she said as she stroked my forehead
Her paw was so gentle and her fur was so soft brushing against my scales
She then asked another question
"Do you think you're ready to leave this place?"
How was I supposed to answer that question? I knew I was to dangerous but I still really wanted to go home to Tye
"I don't know" I said, it was the truth, I didn't know if I could see Tye in the state I'm in
No matter how much I wanted to go home and see my friend ... if I could cause him any harm, I didn't want to be near him
"You're unsure of yourself, why?" she asked
"It's because I'm to dangerous... if you saw what happened in there then you'd understand" I said sadly
She pulled her paw away and wrote something down on the clipboard
"You say you are dangerous but, you can clearly control yourself, so why do you worry?"
"It's because-" she stopped me
"I don't want you to relive that memory"
I nodded and took a deep breath to calm myself down
"Carlos!" she called out into the hallway, he then came into the room they started talking quietly to each other
I already guess what they were talking about... why would they need to be so quiet?
"Dachii... since you turned down my offer of erasing your memory, we're not entirely sure we can get you out of here" Carlos told me
I knew this might happen, but I knew sane or not I was still to dangerous to be let near Tye so if I was going to be forced to stay here, I might as well have what memories that were given to me
This isn't really what I was hoping to hear... but I'm starting to think life isn't all that it's cracked up to be, how can they all live this way?
"So it means I can never see him..." I said sadly before turning over on the couch so I wasn't facing them "do you think I could be alone for a moment?"
I heard them leave and close the door
This was it the world wasn't worth living in, my best friend, my only friend... the one I ... I don't even know if I loved
This world without Tye would just be nothing
I flipped back over so I could sit up
I was surprised to see Ace in the room, how did he get in here without me sensing him?
"Ace?" I looked at him curiously "what are you doing here?"
He walked up to me and sat next to me on the couch, I looked at him and in his eyes only sadness and worry
"I'm sorry" he pulled me close "we shouldn't have done this to you"
I could have sworn a fear tears fell from his eyes but I couldn't tell since he had pulled me into a tight hug and my head was pressing against his chest
"It was my fault, I ... wanted to know if you would grow but, I never meant to put you through such pain"
I didn't understand why but I wasn't mad at him, he had earned my trust from before but why would he do this?
"Do you want to make it up to me?" I asked quietly
"What will it take?" he asked back
I pulled away and stepped off of the couch
"the only way you can make it up to me... is to kill me" I said, at this moment I really didn't give a damn I said it emotionlessly just to say that I was just another experiment to them, why should they care... they've done there test so why am I still here?
"What? No I won't do it! That is out of the question!" he yelled
"You're a coward... or... there's a reason I'm still here... tell me, what is that reason?" I asked him
He was silent for a few moments before finally speaking
"Maybe I am a coward... but I know there's more to you then this, you've only just started life and I won't let it end so soon"
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, I was trying to figure out why, why did he not let me go, I didn't want to exist this way, if I was never going to see Tye whether or not my memories would be erased, what did he want with me?
"You shouldn't have let me live, my life will be nothing since the only place I will know will be here" I said but then I realized what I was saying
I just described Tye's life; he hadn't known anything more than that house on the island... and me
Tye how can you live this way? How did you live that way?
I ... need him here... I feel it will be unbearable... but I know he won't come; I have to be strong just like him
I will get out of here, I won't be told to stay here forever
I walked out of the room leaving Ace to ponder things to himself
I didn't see Carlos or the cheetah in the hall but I knew that even now they were watching me
I thought to myself, I can't go back to the room, I'm not going to be stupid enough to fall for what I bet they have planned for me next
Maybe I can find somewhere to sleep... that couch was comfy but I doubt I'd be allowed to stay in there
I walked down the hall and to the map
Maybe there's a place to hide
They've messed with me enough and I'm not going to go through anymore of it
End of Chapter 5
well what do you think? like i said its a bit shorter but it works right?
where is Dachii going to go?
what will he find when he gets there?
how does Dachii feel about the cheetah?
what is Ace's true thoughts of Dachii?
and where is Carlos and that cheetah?
you'll have to find out in the next chapters
i'm really starting to like these questions, it gives me a little reminder on what to work on
and if you readers have any other questions that you want to ask please comment and i'll give you what answer i can
and also even if you don't have a question comment please i like to know what you readers think of the story