6. Break Away (100 Theme Challenge)
I've stated before in "1. Introduction" that I may not necessarily be writing fiction or poetry for this challenge. This is one such case, as I will be getting a little more real with you.I'm sure many of you have people, places, struggles, or addiction in your lives that are toxic for you. They don't help you in anyway, even if you may think they do. Or, you know they aren't good for you, but you can never find a way to get away from them; you can't find that proverbial light at the end of the tunnel. It's hard to realize they are harmful to you; it's hard to get away from them. Trust me, I have a few struggles myself.That is why I'm going to talk about every furries' favorite subject: porn. Yes, porn. You've most likely seen it, you've probably read it, and you may have created a good chunk of it. Because I try to be an honest feline, I admit to viewing it, reading some of it, and, of course, (insert fapping noises here). I've heard some good things about porn, such as it helping figure out your sexual orientation and what you find attractive in a woman or man, depending on how you swing it. It can even help you figure out if you have any weird fetishes or kinks, such as (insert list of possible fetishes/kinks here). Believe me, it has helped me in that regard. I've come to the conclusion that I'm bisexual, with some male preference, and I have figured out, or some would say, "embraced," a few of my own fetishes/kinks. I'm not always vanilla when it comes to having a good ol' romp.
While that's all good, just like with anything else that's pleasurable, it should be consumed in moderation. I can't tell you how much time I've wasted staring at lewd or explicitly sexual images and jerking off; there have been times I would do this for hours, whether it's late into the night or wasting the day away. I did this a lot in middle school and high school, and I was a lazy tiger because of it. Hell, I've done it while I would live in the dorms at college, if I got lucky. Porn was, and still is, my go-to cure for boredom.Which is why I need to back away from it somehow, maybe even entirely.At this point in my life, I would consider myself a content kitty. I'm looking forward to my new major, I still enjoy writing and growing that craft, and I have a lot more drive to get my own place. Also, I've accepted a lot more of myself, who I am, and what I've become, though I know I still have some growing to do. As do we all. I don't want porn to be my downfall to my own happiness, even if it may be hot, sexy, cute, beautiful, curvy, beefy, chubby, jiggly, dangly, murr, unf, etc. I'd rather be happy with a promising career, and maybe even a mate. I don't want to be someone who spends their time staring at a screen with their pants down and a hand rubbing whatever form of genitalia they have in painful masturbation.
Good night, good day, good whatever time of day you're reading this. I hope this
short meditation of sorts has got you thinking about this particular, almost overlooked, topic.~Ricky