entry 12
#12 of Diary of an Awkward Youth
Dear Diary,
I know it's late, but I can't really sleep too well. I keep thinking about yesterday and how everything happened so quickly. I did enjoy it, don't get me wrong but I have to wonder if it really meant anything. I know, it's not really something that should bother me really, one night stands are sort of common apparently, but it does. I know my brother loves me, ever since the first time we did anything he's been really affectionate, even snuggles up with me sometimes just to sleep. He's adorable, but I don't know if that's fair for him, I mean.. It's not really ideal to have to hide that you're in love with someone.
But Aaron? Did it mean anything to him? or was I just... there? I mean, he was really gentle with me, so at the very least I know he cares whether or not he hurts me, but... I don't know. I want to talk to him about it, but at the same time I'm afraid to.. I don't want to look needy or anything like that.