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Relapsed over you...

On the edge, at the height of the problem, answers are all I find

The reason I cemented in time has somehow began to unwind

Dividing the places & pieces I planted years ago

The blossoming of a forgotten beginning shakes dust to & fro

The beauty I had, that I left behind won't seem to leave my mind

It's aching now, the hole in my heart

I long to fill the time in-between, with a new part

Together, or awkwardly more than we need to be

I find it so unkind to know the only reasoning why it isn't so is up to me

To shatter trust, & break down barriers made for safety & security

I'm the farthest thing from a saint, but a monster I'll never be, yet now, if I do anything, it's solely out of self-pity

My mind racing in place, the point is at my end

Do I do what I want knowing I'll lose more than a friend

Dam it all, my body craves more than I have, & I only live once before I reach my final chapter

Let until then, ring a chime to sing through every rafter

I am, jus human, flaws, & all

Phone at the ready, number already dialed, I've made a call

Red rosy cheeks await my hands so shaky with guilt & lust

Cards on the table, game over.....it's a bust

Dam bodies that share such friction one may just become numb to tomorrow

Pay me no mind if I begin again to unwind, for now, I have time to borrow....

I won't ask for forgiveness, for what I know I'm doing, I wouldn't expect a bit

Jus let me know, with this game we play, when you'd like to quit

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