Bitterwall Stories - Foreword
#1 of Bitterwall Storys
This might as well be a journal, but in that case some people might miss it, or if I ever start to actually write journals regularly it might get lost in the abyss.
Bitterwall stories is a Project I started years ago with "Sick Lovers". Back then it was supposed to be a story revolving around humor, porn and a small group of young people, that still struggled with their sexual identities. This story is still available on sofurry, but it is written in German, my first language. At some point I added a second part to it, along with an edited version of the first one.
However, since then a lot of things have happened. I slowly came into contact with feminism and lgbtq+ activism. You might think of both whatever you want, but despise already being relatively comfortable with being attracted to man and woman as well as people of other genders, both still enriched my live and allowed my bi/pansexuality to become an important part of my identity. Also I started to question my own gender identity as I learned more about transgender people and even if I'm not completely sure yet, which label suits me best, I definitely feel more comfortable somewhere on the feminine side of the spectrum by now. I actually like labels a lot. By now I identified for a long time as bi-gender. However, most recently I started to doubt if it still makes sense for me to identify as partly male, because I noticed a lack of desire to express masculinity and being seen as partly male. I consider getting a therapist and starting HRT and getting permanent facial hair removal, but it all seems a little big and scary at the moment, partly because my parents didn't react too well to my "second outing" (It was somewhat worse than the first one).
By now I think 'Sick Lovers' has some problematic elements I need to change. Also I did some changes on the character designs, so the story doesn't connect to the current canon anymore. I'm going to rewrite (in english) it at some point.
Somewhere at the beginning of the progress I also have written "Not a jerk, just a pervert", my first English story and to my surprise I can consider it a huge success, because I think I got more favorites and watches for it then anything else I ever uploaded. I'm also working on the second part of it. Well at least I have started, but other projects got more important for me.
What is Bitterwall actually?
Bitterwall is a made up city in an alternative universe earth, where all the action takes place. I didn't decide by now, in which country it might be located, but it will probably be based on the USA, with a somewhat altered history and a lot of things having changed in the feature. Bitterwall stories will be a future fantasy story, where earth is inhabited by all kinds of anthros, as well as some demons and magical creatures, that also have contact with aliens by now. Magic is a thing too, so whenever I feel like getting all crazy with nerdy ideas I have all the freedom I could dream of and do some world building.
What do I want to do with the story?
Despite having magic and demons and aliens in it the stories will not revolve around fighting and adventures but mostly revolve around daily life, relationships, sex and lgbtqaa+ -issues. While I want to address all sorts of oppression the focus on drama won't be too strong. I will use the stories to illustrate what I think are healthy (although possibly unusual) relationships, to portrait a wide variety of characters and to express my sexual fantasies. I hope this might result in something that is enjoyable for others on multiple levels. I will try to make sure to separate the sex scenes from the rest of the story, so you can skip those that don't match you preferences if you want to, without missing something important from the story.