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I'm swimming in something I'm not sure of

Maybe in something I can feel from inside

It feels melancholic but very good

It feels wonderful, utopian

Like dreams

Gliding through the water of memories

Is something I'm still not used to

They feel volatile, evasive

But to grasp them

Beautiful

Now I'm descending into the huge lake

Where ever melancholic is stored

The sadness and the grieves

Are the water

And

I'm not sure if I'm drowning or not

Whatever it is I do not care

This sensation of joy

Is quite rare

For me

Into the abyss I slowly descend

My body feels really heavy

In return I get benefits

Briefly happiness,

Gladness

The life necessary one is running out

Maybe I should go to the surface

Or just descend even more

What I'm having is

Crucial

I don't feel alone in these waters

I get company from far away

Who, I really don't know

A known stranger

A name

I land on the ground of the lake

My body is already numb

But I'm not dead

Not going to

Ever

I'm looking around and see calming light

It attracted me slowly into it

I walked and walked

Came closer

Epic

The light was an anchor, a gigantic one

I want to touch and feel its presence

And as soon I land my hand

It begins to go upwards

Weird

Now I stand in the abyss of despair

But I don't feel sad or lonely

Instead I feel brilliant

I really love it

The dusk

I've found happiness in the sadness

I can't be happier than now

But sometimes it hurts

It feels like spikes

Like love