so the change starts. (my fictinal stoy of how i delt with abuse)

Story by Yuko_Foxx on SoFurry

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#1 of so the change begins

I have to say that I written this with the help of vexxus, he is no long proof reading for free any more and you must now pay him to proof read your story for you. But I assure you he is very much well worth the money, It's not up to snuff with how he writes but it should be good enough.


"Kristoffer Charles!" his Mother shrieked when shed seen what he was doing. "What in the hell do you think you're doing boy!? You are not a fucking baby! So you had better stop your god damn stupid shit!" she screeched as she slammed his door shut. Kristoffer was your average 18 year old boy. He got good grades, did his homework and turned it in on time. He had many friends but little to none of them were outside of his school life and at the same time none of them were people he could go and see on the week-ends.

He did have his skeletons in the closet. Then again what person did not? Everyone has their own dirty little secret or another. But Kristoffer's was quite different from the normal. Kris enjoyed to wear and use diapers. It was how he dealt with the abuse from his family. It made him feel good, and it helped him through many stressful situations. But his family did not understand how it helped him. They simply called it "stupid shit" or "not normal" sometimes they even said there was "something" wrong with his head.

But this particular day was too much for Kris. He heard his mother talking to his father in the office in another part of the house. See the houses air vents were all connected at 1 main root. So anything that happened in one room. Any voices or words or sounds that happened in 1 room was carried through the vents and thus was heard through the rest of the house. Kris heard his Mother and Father talking about what they should do about their sons "problem" but Kris had heard enough. And he no longer cared. All he wanted to do was to get away. So he put on his good steel toe boots, and a leather jacket. He put a few of his favorite things in a canvas messenger bag. After he had his things packed he took his cell phone from his pocket and dialed a number off his speed dial list. A soft female's voice answered and Kris spoke low but clearly. "Yeah hi. Its Kris, umm do you think you can meet me at the Uptown Theater 3? Today?" there was a short pause but it seemed like hours rather than moments before the female replied. "Yes. When do you want to meet?" Kris sighed a bit and replied quickly "I'm walking over there right now. So how long do you think it will take you to get there?" the female paused again and then replied. "I can be there in about 5 minutes. Will that give you enough time to get there?" Kris thought for a few second then he replied himself. His voice a tiny bit louder than at first and he spoke in a flat even tone as he had composed himself and was ready to carry out what he was about to do. "Yes. That will be more than enough time. I have a few minor things I'm bringing. A few of my diapers in-case I feel I need them, I have my cell phone, my laptop and a few small other things I feel I need. I will be waiting for you to come and get me. Do I need to text you a picture of me so you can identify me easily or do you think you could spot me without one?" the female was taken a-back a bit by how suddenly his whole attitude had changed but she was a professional and recovered from her shock quickly and replied smoothly. "Alright. And no I do not need a picture of you. I'm sure I can spot you easily thank you. I will see you in a few minutes. Please be careful when leaving your home. I do not want to provoke the wrath of your Father." Kris smiled to himself and then replied. "See you soon then." And the line went dead before the female could respond.

Kris had arrived at the theater shortly before his "ride" was there. He looked carefully at each vehicle that pulled up and went by. It wasn't long before a white care with a logo on the side pulled up and parked in the lot. Kris Observed a young looking female in the front seat behind the wheel pull out her cell phone and issued a text. A few moments after the woman had sent her text, Kris's cell phone vibrated to life. Kris pulled it out of his jacket pocket and looked at it and then texted a reply then waited for the woman to get it after she read it she looked up and looked around. Kris stood there and raised his hand up to his head and touched his forehead lightly with his index and middle finger tips and then dropped it down in a motion that looked as though he was saying hello to someone. The woman picked up on it and made the same gesture as Kris had. Letting him know that she was there. Kris smiled and calmly stepped off the curb and walked to the car. Where he bent down and opened the door. "Hello Kris. It's nice to finally meet you in person." Kris smiled and nodded as he climbed in. he couldn't help but blush at the soft crinkle that his diaper made when he sat down. "Yes Jennifer. It's nice to meet you too." He said shaking her hand.

Soon Kris and Jennifer were on their way to her office. As they drove Jennifer was asking Kris questions about himself. Small things really. Many would have considered them trivial. But Kris was a firm believer that noting was trivial. No matter how small it seemed he treated it with great importance. Jennifer asked Kris what his favorite color was, what his favorite kind of music was, what his favorite animal or cartoon was. They spend a good 2 hours playing 20 questions. When they finally got to Jennifer's office she knew much, much more about Kris than even his own parents knew about him. Or well that was what he claimed. After they was in the office Jennifer closed the blinds at all of the windows in the office accept for the one that went outside which was fine because they were on the 3rd floor of the building. Kris noted how she closed the blinds in a way that no one could look through them or around them no matter what position they stood at. He also noted how she locked her office door. After she had done this she sat back down and started to type on her computer then she looked to Kris and smiles warmly to him and said "you do realize I locked the door and closed all the blinds for a reason right?" Kris thought for a moment then he nodded and replied to her by saying "confidentiality reasons right?" Jennifer smiled and went back to typing. "Well that's the main reason but another reason is in case you need to change." She smiled still typing. Kris was a little confused at first. "Change? Change what?" he asked then blushed as Jennifer smiled and looked at him over the top of her glasses "you know what Kris." She said with a smile finding it a little amusing that Kris hadn't realized what she had meant right away.

Kris blushed as he suddenly wet his diaper and was reminded of how full it was and then he gulped and blushed hotly as he stood up and began digging in his bag, while Jennifer watched him from the corner of her eye as she typed. Kris got his clean diaper out and got to undoing his belt when suddenly looked up to Jennifer and stuttered, "umm J Jennifer?" Jennifer looked at him and smiled "yes Kris? Is something wrong?" Kris blushed profusely and looked down at his feet before he replied, "will you umm will you help me?" Kris asked blushing even more as Jennifer let out a soft chuckle then Kris looked up in bewilderment as he heard her slide her chair out from under her desk and walked to him and took his diaper from him and then she lead him back to her desk.

"Okay Kris lie down on the desk for me. Okay?" Kris blushed hotly and covered his face with his hands not really regretting asking but being shocked and embarrassed that she was actually obliging to his request. At seeing his hesitation Jennifer giggled in a caring manor and lifted Kris up by his under arms saying "up we go" as she did so. This made Kris squeak as she did this. She then set him down on the desk and Kris whined a little bit as he felt the diapers wet padding squish under him. "Now just lie down and relax Kris. Remember you asked me to do this so I have your full consent. Are you going to be okay or do you want me to wait for a few minutes so you can compose yourself again?" Jennifer asked rubbing Kris's head in a maternal way. Kris took a few deep breaths and then looked up with a sheepish smile and say "Continue please?" to this Jennifer smiled back and undid Kris's belt and pants. She un-buttoned his pants and pulled down the zipper when she stopped. Kris looked at her slightly confused then blushed a bit as she began untying his boots and pulling them off. After that she then pulls his pants and under wear off revealing a quite full Unique Wellness size medium or small adult diaper. Jennifer smiled and gently squeezed the crotch of the diaper making Kris squeak again and then she lifted his legs by his ankles and gently pressed on his rump feeling the really wet diaper under him he gasped a little bit and blushed as she laid him back down then she smiled and reached down and rubbed his belly in a caring and comforting way. The rubbing made Kris settle down and relax for her. After that she smiled and slowly and carefully undid the four tapes holding his diaper on him, then she lifted his ankles again and slid the wet diaper out from under him after that she smiles and asked him "do you have anything in your back for cleaning up?, like wipes or powder?" she asked smiling then Kris gulped and shook his head and replied "um n no I don't.....I don't usually use that kind of stuff." To this Jennifer sighed a bit and picked up the wet diaper and slid it back under him. She laid him back down on it and pulled it up in the front and tucked the wings underneath him and then secured the four tapes a bit more snuggly than they had been at first then she picked up his pants and under wear and redressed him then put his shoes back on for him all the while Kris stayed quite wondering if he'd done something wrong. He was brought back to reality as Jennifer picked him back up and set him back down on his feet and then held his hand as she lead him from her office.

"Jennifer what's wrong?" Kris asked being a bit scared he had upset her somehow "nothing's wrong. But if you're going to wear diapers its unhealthy to not have things like wipes or powder or stuff like that to clean up with. You could get rashes and other nasty stuff. So we are going to hold off on that change for a few minutes and go to the store and get you a few supplies. Then we will come back and ill change you." This all both embarrassed Kris but at the same time it made perfect sense to him as well. She was only looking out for his health after all that was her job. They went to the parking lot and got into Jennifer's car and then pulled out and went to the "Baby's-R-us" super store and Kris blushed hotly as they went in. Jennifer made Kris hold her hand as they walked around until they found the isle with the changing supplies. Jennifer smiled and patted Kris's rump a few times as she told him to go and pick out 1 stuffed animal that wasn't too pricy from the stuffed toy isle that was next to the supply's isle. So Kris nodded and went to the toy isle and walked up and down it for a long while. Eventually Jennifer came into the isle herself and her shopping basket was filled with a few bottles of baby powder, some tubs of wipes, and a few bottles of baby lotion as well. She smiled and walked up behind Kris and gently swatted his rump in a playful manor and giggled as he jumped and blushed looking at her "you were here for so long I was worried the toys had attacked you and buried you." She said in a joking voice, Kris smiled a bit and she could see it was a real smile and not a forced one and she thought to herself 'so. He does have a happy side to him. That's good to know.' To this Kris shook his head and pointed at a huge stuffed polar bear toy and grinned and said "luck there tried to smoother me but I made him decide otherwise." Kris said with a cross between a grin and smile playing at his face. Jennifer started to laugh and ruffled his hair then she smiled and put her hand on his shoulder walking down the aisle with him "so have you picked one out yet?" she asked sound genuinely interested in what he would choose. Kris sighed a bit and looked up and said "yes I have picked one but.....I don't really want to ask for it because I don't know if you'd consider it too pricy....that and it may throw you off due to its size." Jennifer smiled and patted his back and rubbed it a little bit. "Well show it to me and I'll be the judge of that. Okay" she said gently patting his rump again ushering him to lead the way. So he led her to a life sized dire wolf stuffed toy and then stood next to it and put his right hand on his left fore-arm frowning a bit as Jennifer looked at the price. "Well the size did throw me off a bit. And I really like it too and it's not as expensive as it looks but if you're really this uncomfortable with asking for this one. Why don't you look for something you feel more comfortable with asking for?" she suggested picking the wolf up and examining it a bit as she spoke. Kris nodded and walked down the aisle a bit more until he sighed and walked back. To where Jennifer was standing still holding the wolf. She smiled warmly. "Let me guess. Couldn't find anything else?" Kris sighed and looked up at her and rubbed the back of his head a little bit and "well....they have a lot of nice things....but.......see. Wolves are hard to come by as it is. But foxes....well foxes are an entirely different matter altogether. Not many people carry foxes because well I guess they aren't that popular." He replied. Jennifer smiled knowingly and nodded and handed Kris the wolf and then put her hand on the back of his shoulder and lead him to the check out. With everything paid for and in the car they went back to Jennifer's office. Once there, she smiled and waked back to her desk and stood next to it and opened one of the bottles of baby power and baby lotion and then she opened one of the plastic tubs of wipes. After that she smiled and turned to Kris and then yet again lifted him back up onto the desk top and laid him down. She repeated her process of last time by undoing his belt, then his pants button and zipper. She then removed his shoes and pants and underwear after that she lifted his ankles and checked the back of his diaper and then frowned a bit as she laid him back down then she picked him back up by his under arms and raised him into a sitting position then she looked at Kris with a serious look. This made Kris gulp. "Now listen. I know you probably don't normally like doing this but. If you need to use the bathroom I urge you to do so now. Okay?" Kris was a bit confused by this but then soon he realized what she meant. "You...want...me to...to umm." Kris couldn't seem to get the words out so Jennifer smiled and nodded to him "I want you to try and go poopy in your diaper for me real quick. Yes." This shocked Kris and he blushes hotly to this and gulp not really wanting too but he had a feeling bit as he pushed a hot, and smelly load into the seat of his diaper. He hated messing his diaper enough as it was. But he really hated to mess it while sitting down. Because this made the mess he was done Jennifer smiled and had him stand up. Wearing only a diaper and t-shirt she then gently squeezed the crotch of his diaper and this made him whine. "It's okay Kris. Its okay I'm glad you went poopy. This gives me a real reason to clean you up in a proper way. It'll be okay." She assured him as she turned him around and pulled his diaper away from his rump and looked in. when she was satisfied she turned him back around gain and lifted him up by his under arms repeating her statement from earlier this time with a more motherly voice "up we go" she said in a soft and maternal voice as she sat him down careful not to cause him more discomfort than need be, she then set him on the desk and laid him down gently. She opened the lid to the tub of wipes and then she reached down and untapped the 4 tapes holding his diaper up then after that she pulled it down and used the front and middle to wipe up a little bit of the mess and then she lifted his ankles up high and pulled a few wipes from the tub and began to gently wipe him clean, stroking his rump cheeks with the wipes till they were cleaned she then began to clean between his rump cheeks making him blush and squirm a-bit in embarrassment "hold still you silly little wiggle worm." She laughed as she cleaned between his cheeks. After that she put the used wipes in the diaper and carefully balanced his ankles on her shoulder and rolled up the diaper and dropped it into the trash can next to the desk. She then carefully grabbed his ankles so she didn't droop him by accident even though she could tell that Kris was actually using his own strength to make himself seem lighter to her. But she smiled and picked his ankles up off of her shoulder and began to clean the back of his thighs, and between his cheeks a bit more getting into the crevice's around his little hole. She then laid him back down on the desk and pulled out his clean diaper again and unfolded it then she smiled and grabbed his ankles and lifted him up high again this time even lifting his lower back up. This made Kris squeak and reach for the edges of the desk in slight fear he might be raised up so much that he may slide towards her and fall. this how ever did not come to pass, she held him steady and slid his clean diaper underneath him and then she grabbed the bottle of baby powder and sprinkled some onto his rump and made sure to get just a little extra on his cheeks, she then set the bottle down and began to gently massage the powder into his rump and between his cheeks. She made sure to rub it in gently but to the extent that any extra fell onto the diaper and the rest was gently and thoroughly massaged into his rumps skin. She then laid him down on the diaper and smiled as she took the bottle of baby lotion and squirted a quarter sized amount of it into her hand, she then gently pressed her hand to Kris's privets and began to gently massage it in as well. Getting it into his sheath (his fore-skin), and onto his main shaft. She then made sure to rub a legitimate amount into his ball sack until it was smooth as well. She then smiled and rubbed her hands onto his thighs to get any bits of lotion off of her hands after that she then smiles and pulls his diaper up between his legs and tucked the wings underneath him again. She secured the bottom left tape first then she tucked the right wing under him and then secure the bottom right tape in the same manner as the left tape. Kris noticed then that the tapes were evenly spaced between each other and they were evenly spaced from the bottom of the tape panel on the front of his diaper. If he were to count the small individual dots in the wetness indicators he would find that the tapes had been secured just above the 6th dot from the bottom of the tape panel. Jennifer smiled at Kris and then she secured the top left tape also 6 dots away from the top of the tape panel on the front of the diaper. When she was done the tapes were pulled in a small way that made them look like they were pointing to each other. Top left to the bottom right and bottom right to top left. After she was finished she smiled and picked Kris up by his under arms and sat him down in the small arm chair next to her desk so she could speak to him one on one. Kris was still blushing from the whole experience but he didn't bother to ask about his pants. He figured she'd simply tell him to leave them off so it would make keeping an eye on his diaper much easier if he wasn't wearing them. So he simple settled down into the chair and watched her type. After a little while she stopped typing and then sat back in her chair and swiveled it to face him so then folded her hands in her lap and smiled

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