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i looked up to the sky, tears rolling down my cheeks. "why?" i whispered and feel to my knees. it was a dark stormy night lightning danced above me and thunder boomed around me. "WHY!" i screamed holding my chest. i was now crying full on. i could not stop my self, i fell to the ground. "why did you take them." i whispered to myself. i laid on top of a hill over looking the city.. the same spot hayden told me he wanted to marry me. this once joyful spot i run to...

-hayden-

"JEREMY! WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU!" i yelled out and quickly called Aaron.

"yeah?" hes harsh voice boomed.

"did you find him?"

"no im still looking."

"tell me when you do."

"no prob, hayden... we will find him." and with that he hung up.

"JEREMY!" i yelled looking though the woods. "JEREMY WHERE ARE YOU!"

-till-

"SHEP WHERE DID YOU GO!" i ran though the college, gym and wight room looking for him. "fuck where could he have gone?" i asked myself.

-Leon-

"STORM!" i yelled out looking around the outer limits of the college.

-storm-

i laid in the mud. the heavy rain pounding my body with each drop. i walked to the edge of the hill and looked over the city. i looked down to the rocks below, how far the drop was. i wanted to drop but i walked back to the spot me and hayden shared. i just knelled down and looked up to the sky. water pounding against my muzzle as tears fell to the ground. "MOM! DAD! FUCK YOU GOD WHY DID YOU TAKE THEM." i howled out.

"JEREMY!" hayden yelled sprinting towards me. i slid and pulled me into a tight warm hug.

"im s-sorry." i cried out into his should."im so so sorry."

"shh, hon everything will be okay. i promise." he said tightening his hold on me even more. "nothing bad will happen." i kept crying harder. "shh its ok." he held the back of my head rocking back and forth. he got out his phone and called some one. all i could hear was him say "i found him tell the others." then he hung up.

"why did they have to die." i said lightly holding onto hayden tightly.

"some times life is just mean.. it takes people for no reason." he said rubbing his muzzle against mine.

the world slowly started to fade to black. before i knew it, i was out.

-Hayden-

the rain slowly stopped and the clouds ran away. it was a beautiful night, full moon, slightly warm, trickle of rain droplets fell to the ground from the trees and my mate sleeping in my arms. "you have to be one of the strongest guys i know hon.. how you never let anything get you down just astounds me. i would not blame you from taking time off of the band for this though.. in fact i would love it if you did. maybe a brake from school as well.." i said out loud as if he could hear me. i kissed his head and held him close to my chest. i looked up at the full moon and started to wonder if anyone was looking up into the sky at the same time with a shepherd in their arms.

imagine for one night everything was alright and no one had to die no one told a lie oh, how good this world would be but sadly we live in lies its not earth if no one dies we cant say everything is alright even though it may seem like it for tonight

i sing my lungs out here i wish you could hear but your asleep on my shoulder i wish they were alive as much as you but theirs nothing i can do i sing my mind for you to hear even though you arnt here i sing to the moon in hopes it will find you and maybe for one night the world would be alright.

i sang out holding my mate tightly to my shoulder. i saw a light smile form on his muzzle for the first time after the call. and just from that small little jester i knew everything will be alright.

-Storm-

"NO GET AWAY!" i yelled running around in the dark red hallways of what could only be hell.

"but we want to play!" demons yelled out at me. their horns on their backs, legs broken but yet they walk fine. bone fingers hanging out of burnt flesh, the smell of death surround me.

"LEAVE ME ALONE!" i yelled. i felt something grab my leg and with a loud yelp i fell to the ground with a "omph" i looked back and slowly the demonic creatures walked towards me.

"time to die, for your lies, no fags shall live tonight. no one cares, for your dares, you will not live past this time." the sang and cackled as the showed their dull fangs with tinny fangs on them to help cutting.

"NO!" i backed up into a wall. as my back hit the blood red wall, a burning sensation hit me. it was like i was on fire. the fur burning, flesh rotting and falling to the ground.

"ITS TIMEE!!!" the creatures jumped up at me.

"NO!" i closed my eyes and turned away. i waited for the pain to start but i felt nothing.

"i sing my lungs out here. i wish you could hear, but your asleep on my shoulder. i wish they were alive, as much as you." i heard faintly. i looked up and saw a bright light fill the blooded walls. the demons yelling in pain. soon the walls came down. and the burning stopped, the blood was gone. i felt no pain.

"wha- whats going on?" i barked out into the now white hallway. slowly i saw a full moon in front of me. as i walked towards it i smiled. i felt joy for some reason. when i got to it i was surrounded by darkness. then i opened my eyes and saw hayden holding me tightly to his body letting me sleep. i put my paw on his chest and he looked down and kissed my nose.

"hi." he smiled.

"hi." i said back and kissed his lips.

"are you alright, jeremy?" he asked.

"yes, now that your are here." i smiled and hugged his waist. we both looked up at the full moon, the silent night calming nervs, the warmth of my mate holding me. nothing bad would happen....

or was i mistaken...

-morning of the next day-

lighting flashed around me as i stood in what i thought was a forest. the bright lights flashing randomly and the loud boom of thunder shook my body. i couldnt help but whimper and fall to my knees, its like that night all over again. a week ago my parents died. everything was cristal clear. i was re-living this night again! i felt something shake my body, i slowly opened my eyes and saw my husky in a suit. "come on hon. its time to go to the funeral." he said in a gental voice and laid my suit next to me.

"thank you." i said lightly and got up. i stretched a little then took of my shorts pulling on the suit pants over my boxers. the white under shirt than a black dress coat finely a black tie. "how do i look?" i asked hayden looking on the ground.

"amazing." he smiled then frowned. "jeremy?"

"yeah." i said with a slight sigh looking at him.

"your parents treated you like crap... why are you going to their funeral?"

"they may have been jerk offs to me, but, their still my family. i may not have showed them much love... but i still loved them to death." i said looking into his eyes. a slight tear rolls down my cheek and onto the ground.

he hugged me tightly. his arms warping me into a warm bond. i licked his nose and headed for the door. he picked up the car keys and walked behind me. outside we met Aaron and Seth as well as Till and Leon. each one gave me a hug and we started on our way to the chruch.

-at the wake-

i walked up to the caskets that held my parents bodies. the cuts and wounds not visible under the clothing, or the makeup they had on them. i put my paw onto my chin as tears started falling down my muzzle, after that.. i just lost it. i fell to my knees and put my paws to my eyes. hayden walked over and set his paw on my shoulder and kneeled down next to me. "hon you going to be ok." he said tenderly and hugged me tightly.

"i dont know." i whimpered out softly and hugged him back as tight as i could. after what felt like 3 hours, we got up and sat next to Till, Aaron, Seth and Leon.

the pastor walked out and stood in front of the open caskets. "good morning all." he said.

"morning." everyone said gloomy the crowd their was me and my, friends. Ant linda, sue, jan, emily, sammy. uncale Dan, mark, jasper, joe, austin. my cuzins sammy, joey, tim, niki, emily, sophe, james, ben.

-half hour later-

"we have a eulogy from Jeremy." the paster said and pointed at me to come up. hayden grabbed my paw making me turn and look into his eyes. i just shook my head telling him i was ok and walked up.

"hey all." i said giving a soft smile. everyone just said hi some just stared at me.

"i know most of you dont care about me due to, well, marring Hayden... but this was my family. i felt like no matter what i must be here. im not going to say the bad because their were never any bad moments. ok, well, their was some but things happen and we moved on." everyone staid quite. "i, eh. i remember when my mom told me one day, if she died, to play one song for her.. but before i do that i want to share some memories i have of her, as well as my father. i dont know if sophe and ben can remember this. they were pretty young but does everyone remember that family party we had up and aunt lindas house?" everyone nodded. "remember when Treasa" i cleared my throat. "i mean my mom. stood up with niki and danced to singing in the rain, and how she almost knocked over the turkey, burgers and potato saled." i chuckled and got some chuckles from the family members. "that same night she told me that she would never dance that long again. and what happened the next morning?"

"she danced even longer and messed up our game of black jack!" sammy said laughing and soon everyone was laughing.

"that wasnt even the worst part. remember when my dad came in with the video camera and video taped my mom dancing. after words she chased him all over the house and back yard yelling at him. and when he slowed down she jumped him and they both fell into the cow pen." other started laughing.

"I GOT A STORY!" niki said. i stood to the side and let her come up. she told her sotries and than one by one everyone got a storie in, even Hayden!

"well now that we ran out of stories. i would like to play this song i wrote just for them... can you help me, hayden?"

"sure thing hon." he walked up and pulled out the guitars we brought.

"i hope you all enjoy this.."

when i was young i thought you were never fun but when i look back, you made me who i am everything i have done was because of you. you showed me love when i needed it the most you showed me you cared even to who i date i wish we could have staid together longer but times always change.

life throws curve balls everyone once in a while if we miss them we are out i stand here in front of you today asking for you to come back even though you are with me no matter what you say no matter what you did i would love you forever

the lighting struck above my head as i ran in the rain i was lost not to be found but i force held me back i looked off a clif wanting to jump, but couldn't. i fell to my knees and cried before i knew it my mate was their for me i held me wen i need to be held he showed me love when i needed it the most just like you he made sure i was alright just like you but here i sing this song

i want everyone to know nothing bad happened everything that did was ment for a reason i want everyone to know how much we loved each other even though it seemed like we didnt.

let the rain come down let it poor on my face let the rain come down and flood out the grave let the rain come down and clear my mind let the rain come down and wash away what has happened

but their is one thing i wish was true. i wish you were here i wish you were here I WISH YOU WERE HERE

let the rain come down let it poor on my face let the rain come down sand destroy the grave let the rain come down and clear my mind from the pain it brings let the rain come down let the rain come down let the rain come down let the rain come down to hide my tears.

everyone just looked at us, tears in their eyes. i looked away and wiped my eyes clean. me and hayden got up and put our stuff away and walked back to our seats. everyone one loved the song... but next thing we had to do is go to the grave yard..

-next day-

-Hayden-

i was walking outside with my lunch when i spotted till sitting alone looking out over the football filed. i walked up and sat by him.

"hey till."

"oh!" he said looking at me his tail wagging faster now. "hey Hayden whats up? Jeremy doing ok? and have you been ok?" he asked his ears going down slightly.

"well.." i looked over the filed. "thats what im sorta worried about... he hasn't been himself. he has been sitting in bed all day, not doing anything!" i said my tail and ears going limp.

"hmm." he said looking at the ground. "thats tough man. what did you do last time he was really sad?"

"other than yiff him?" i chuckled.

"HA!" he barked. "i guess ya could do that, but you shure it would help him?"

i put my head down. "to be honest i dont even know if i can please him."

"awe Hayden you know you can." he said and wrapped his arms around me hugging me tightly. "if you didnt im sure you wouldnt be with him. you know hes the type that if he dosnt love it he well push it away. sorta... hell still be friends with them but he dosnt believe that love is something we should throw around." he smiled and i smiled back.

"thanks Till." i said and licked his nose.

"no prob boyyo." he licked back and got up and walked to the filed.

-Jeremy-

i put my paws under my head, the covers of the bed slighlty around my waist and i let out of soft sigh. "i wonder if hayden would be okay with going on a trip somewhere." i said to my self. i got up and put on some cloths and Axe and headed out the door. a little while later i ran into hayden looking over the football field watching the team practice. "why did i know i would find you here." i said from behind him making him jump.

"dont do that! want me to pin you to the ground and yell stranger danger?!" he said slowly calming down form the scare.

"well the first part seem's like a lot of fun." i smirked and sat down next to him.

"me ontop of you always seems fun to you." he chuckled and patted my tigh.

"yup!.. hey hon?"

"yeah love?"

"how about we get away from school for a week? i really need to go out somewhere to free my mind." i said laying my head on his shoulder.

"fine by me... when do you want to leave?" hayden said rubbing my cheek.

"any time your ready hon." i said holding his paw.

"then lets go now." he said and got up holding out his paw.

"fine by me." i said and grabed his paw. next thing i knew we were in his car and on our way to some place neither of us knew.