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Markus

*****

I don't remember anything after that girl seduced me. All I could recall was wave after wave of mind-blowing orgasms. It was about my fifth orgasm that I finally registered where I was and what had happened. My mind panicked and I got up from a cardboard box that I guessed we must've used as some sort of mat. My pants were back on and there was a sticky note attached to my shirt.

"Here's my number if you want to meet up again. <3" it read. No...I-I don't believe it. I...I had sex with her. T-That meant that I...cheated on Silnis. I betrayed Silnis by breaking my promise to stay loyal to him forever. I wanted to think that it didn't happen and that it was just some sick dream I was having, but the note and the definite trace smell of the girl's pheromones on me was proof that I did it.

Looking at my cellphone for the time, I saw that my shift was done an hour ago! Just how long did she make me go?! I scrambled back to the Cinnabon and as soon as I step foot in the store, I got a scolding from my manager for not calling in. I apologized as much as I could, not wanting to explain that I got seduced by a girl and forced to have sex. I got threatened that I would lose my job if it ever happened again, getting one last warning before being dismissed. Only one thing was on my mind now: Silnis. He would always expect me after work and I could imagine how he must be feeling now.

As I was driving to his house, a sudden thought came to me. I still had the girl's pheromones on me. What if Silnis smelled it and figured out I cheated on him?! He would be so furious and never forgive me. As much as I wanted to see him and apologize for not coming, I couldn't take the risk so I just drove home instead. A phone call would suffice for now until I could cover up this incident.

Luckily, my parents weren't home so I didn't have to worry about them smelling the pheromone and getting suspicious. I jumped in the shower and washed off all evidence of what happened, though the pheromone wouldn't leave. After spending about half an hour in the shower, I got rid of all the physical evidence, and gave up cleaning up the pheromone. I just hoped it would clear up by tomorrow.

Isolating myself in my room, I scanned through all the text messages that Silnis left me. At first, they were asking how I was, but then it started going into topics of why I wasn't answering. Eventually he assumed that I had taken an extra shift and was too busy to respond and stopped after that, leaving the message of "I love you...always," at the end. At that point I was fighting back tears, trying to not to cry as the pain of knowing that I betrayed Silnis' trust gnawed at me. What kind of mate was I if I couldn't even keep my promises to him? I should've been stronger and resisted her! Why...? Why!

I was so angry at myself for not being stronger that I starting chucking things across the room, imagining that it was that dirty skank I was throwing them at. After running out of things to throw, I settled down and sat on my bed, my head in my hands. What was I going to do?

Silnis

*****

Wow, Markus must've really taken a lot of extra shifts. I called and texted him all morning and got no reply. I guessed he must've really overdone himself with the extra shifts. Well...since he couldn't come over and visit me, I could just visit him! He's been over to my house too many times to count so a little change wouldn't hurt! Unfortunately for me, I couldn't drive yet so it was back to good old-fashioned mommy drop-off.

"Bye Silnis! Have fun with Markus!" she shouted at me before driving off with my younger siblings to run some errands. I stood outside Markus' house, wondering if I should catch my mom before it was too late. I didn't want to bother Markus if he was tired, but our recent mating has really made the desire to be with him even more than I'm used to. Oh well, I might as well give it a go since I'm here already.

I stepped up to the front door and didn't even have to knock as the door swung open and there stood Markus, looking exhausted as I expected. My reaction was so unlike me, but I instantly lunged at him and tackled him in a hug. We both collapsed to the floor while I giggled happily. I was expecting him to put up a tickle fight or something, but I guessed he was really that exhausted to not do anything to me.

"Good morning Markus, dear." I said cheerfully, my tail swinging back and forth. I went up to kiss him, wrapping my arms around him. The kiss didn't last long as Markus wasn't really putting much effort into making it passionate like he usually does.

"Markus, are you all right? If you really tired than we can just sit down and I'll let you sleep on my lap." I offered. He looked like he was about to say something but stopped short, nodding his head before I led him to the sofa and sat down. He laid his head on my lap and we sat like that for a few minutes before he fell asleep. I regretted coming here now. Markus really needed some more sleep and I just deprived him some minutes of it.

My fingers played with his head fur, humming random songs to myself. My thoughts went to the school party and I still had to consider what song I would be performing that night. It was still some days away, but Garrett has been really pestering everyone to choose their performing songs. I'll cross that bridge when I come to it. Markus' phone suddenly went off and he didn't stir. Deciding to pick up his phone, I answered it.

"Hello?" I said, expecting it to be his parents of something.

"Hey big boy, did you enjoy yesterday's romp? You really filled me up in that alleyway. I don't think I can settle for anyone else now. So do you think we can meet up again? How about in the park? I know a really secret place where we can bang all day. You up for it?" some girl replied. What in the what? Who was this?! I took the phone off my ear for a second and looked at the caller ID. It didn't even have a full name, only part of it "Sadie".

"Umm...I think you got the wrong number." I told her.

"Oh don't play shy with me boy. I know you want to. Tell you what, I'll give you some time to think about it and I'll call again in about an hour again, okay? Love you!" she hung up afterwards, leaving me confused. Did Markus know this girl or was she just seriously lost and horny that she didn't care who she was talking to? Either way, I made a note to myself to ask him later as I put his phone away and continued to brush his fur.

I must have fallen asleep at some point because when I woke up, Markus wasn't sleeping in my lap anymore. Odd...usually he would just lay there and wait for me to wake up. Stretching myself after being in that sitting position for so long, I went into the kitchen and helped myself to a drink. As I was guzzling down my thirst, I heard Markus talking upstairs to someone. Who could it be? Was it that girl from earlier on the phone? Going upstairs, Markus' door was shut and it sounded like a pretty intense talk. I just sat outside the door, listening in on their conversation.

Markus

*****

"I swear, I'll fucking kill you if I see you again!" I swore at her, furious.

"Aww...is big boy mad? You're so cute when you're mad. Besides, you can't deny that you liked it and you know it." She defended, trying to talk in that disgusting seductive tone.

"Don't try that shit on me again! It won't work!" I told her, getting small flashbacks of that incident in the alley.

"You know you want it..." she cooed, making me start to remember everything that happened that time.

"S-Shut up! I better not see you again or else I won't hesitate to hit a girl!" I threatened, hanging up and slamming my phone down on my nightstand. That fucking bitch! I just want to rip her throat out! Sitting on my bed, I could remember clearly now how it all played out in the alley. After she had fully seduced me, I lost it and went at her like a feral wolf. I gave her no mercy and pounded her so hard that she yelped a few times. My first orgasm came quick and I tied with her, releasing my seed deep into her. We laid there for an hour, my rod still hard and ready to breed again. Her pheromones didn't let up and we were at it again. It would be four more orgasms that her pheromones would stop and that she would have her fill before leaving me with a deep kiss to the mouth and the note on my shirt.

The only thing that I hated myself for was the fact that I wasn't conscious enough to keep myself from tying with her. If I had done that, than I wouldn't had felt so guilty about cheating on Silnis. Tying her technically meant that she and I were...mates now...no matter how much I wanted to deny it. I wished there were some way to reverse what I did, but that was unlikely to happen.

"Markus...are you in here?" Silnis came in, scaring me as I thought he had heard my conversation.

"S-Silnis! I-I..." I stuttered, not really sure what excuse to come up with.

"Did you really have to leave me all alone down there? I was getting cold." He said, rubbing his eyes and yawning. Oh...good...he just woke up.

"I'm sorry babe. I just had to call my parents and see if they could pick up some groceries when they were coming home." I lied to him, feeling awful inside as I had never lied to Silnis before and it stung to.

"All right then...but can you hold me?" he said, walking up to me and wrapping his arms around me. He nuzzled me affectionately under my chin and I had to return the favor. I was pretty upset this morning after yesterday, so the least I could do was make up some lost time with him. Pulling him to my bed, I sat us down and held him tight against my chest, caressing his back and taking in his wonderful scent. Though the girl's pheromones were more potent, they didn't really have that sweet smell that Silnis' had. Silnis...I love you with all my heart...but how can you forgive me? I don't deserve the title of being your mate. Everything I promised you...I broke. Just thinking about this made me tear up as I sucked it in, not wanting to cry in front of Silnis.

Silnis

*****

I wasn't sure what I heard, but it troubled me. What had they been talking about? What did she mean when she said that Markus liked it? Who was she? What was she to Markus? Why was Markus so upset? All these questions pooled in my head, struggling to find an answer but finding none.

Markus wouldn't cheat on me. He promised me after all. He even said that he would only love me and only me. But what if he was? How should I react? I was confused on what to do. No sure answer appeared to me, but I personally preferred it that way. I just wanted to treasure this moment now with Markus. The thought of losing him to someone else made me hold him tighter. He was everything to me and I didn't want to lose him. He was the one who brought me back on my feet after Luke cheated on me, and I don't know what I would do if the same thing happened to Markus. All I ever wanted was to be happy for the rest of my life with Markus. Is that too much to ask for?

We laid there on his bed for what seemed like forever. The silence eventually got to me and I asked if I could put on some music. He handed me the remote to his stereo system and I flipped it to one of my favorite radio stations. I always listened to this particular station because it had a lot of my favorite artists, but mainly because the songs were always calming and brought some peace inside me.

(Kiss Me Goodbye- Angela Aki)

_You say my love is all you need, to see you through But I know these words are not quite true

Here is the path you're looking for, an open door Leading to worlds you long to explore

Go, if you must move on alone I'm gonna make it on my own_ Now of all times?! I swear sometimes. It's as if life is literally trying to test love on me. Well, as far as I could see, this love has a sour taste to it compared to its sweet and savory flavor days ago. All of a sudden, I felt something wet fall on my head and looked up to see Markus...crying. He was...crying?

"M-Markus, are you okay?" I asked, wondering if something was wrong. He only shook his head, wiping away the tears with his arm.

_As time goes by I know you'll see this of me I loved you enough to let you go free

Go, I will give you wings to fly Cast all your fears into the sky_

_Kiss me good-bye, love's mystery All of my life I'll hold you close to me

Won't shed a tear for love's mortality For you put the dream in my reality

Kiss me good-bye, love's memory You put the dream in my reality_ At that point Markus just lost it and broke down into tears, falling onto me and crying his heart out. I didn't know what was wrong with Markus, but a part of me presumed that it had something to do with that girl he was talking to on the phone earlier. Something happened, and it was affecting Markus in ways that I've never seen him act before. I couldn't offer any advice, but only my shoulder for him to cry and hold on to. I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what to do. But most importantly, I didn't know what was going on.

Markus

*****

"I-I'm sorry...Silnis...I just...I-," He shushed me, holding me closer and tighter to him.

"Don't be sorry for anything. You haven't done anything wrong to say sorry," he said, rubbing my back tenderly enough to make me stop crying. He continued this until I had calmed down, moving away from his embrace and looking at him with moist eyes.

"Silnis...I have to tell you something. I-," I was cut off again by Silnis' cellphone ringing. He answered it and had a few exchanged words before hanging up and looking at me with a sad expression.

"Sorry Markus, but I have to get home," he explained, trying on a small smile as he came over and hugged me again, "I'll see you tomorrow. Try to get some sleep okay?" Kissing me goodbye, I held on to the kiss a little longer before he withdrew, my hand trailing his face as he left. Silnis...I was so close to telling you, but some part of me doesn't want to. Why can't I tell you? Is it because I'm afraid that you'll never forgive me and revert back to your shell? Is it the fear that I'll break you too far that life won't hold any meaning to you anymore? I don't want to see you fall back into that hole, but I don't want to tell you the thing that could ultimately lead you to that. I guessed my only solution now was to keep my secret for as long as possible and live with it. Silnis' happiness came first and I'm not going to make him lose that.

Silnis

*****

My mom just pulled up in front of Markus' house before I hopped in, sliding the door of the mini-van shut before she started to drive. My two younger siblings were fast asleep in their car seats while Aaron was in the back seat, holding a bag of ice to his face. No words were needed to explain what had happened. This had occurred enough times for me to know what exactly transpired.

"This is the fifth time Aaron that this has happened. I told you already, you don't have to defend me just because other peoples' opinions don't agree with yours. They can think whatever they want," I told him, putting on a stern face yet a gentle tone.

"They kept calling you a fag Silnis! They said that people like you shouldn't be allowed to live. I just had to shut their mouths up," He said. I couldn't say anything else after that. Aaron was a sweet brother and all, but his temper just got the best of him sometimes.

"So what did you do to them this time?" I asked.

"Nothing much besides a few bruises that'll make them remember not to say anything about you again," he snickered, amused at the thought. Sighing, I turned back to the front and focused matters on other things besides my brother little spar with his "friends".

Markus wasn't his normal self today. That was pretty much clear as water. My suspicions were at the girl on the phone. Who was she? What did she want? Is she the one making Markus so emotional? I want to find out! But...how can I do that? I pondered that thought.

There was the chance that I could...pretend to be Markus and meet up with that girl in the park like she suggested. Maybe then I could figure out this mystery. It might seem like I was being nosy and going into Markus' business, but I was his mate and I just had to find out why he was acting so strangely. It was official then. I would have to get a hand on Markus' phone, call her, and agree to meet her at the park. Markus...please forgive me if I do this, but you're suffering and I have to put an end to it. You can't always be the one protecting me. Sometimes I have to be the one to do that job as well.