In a Sympathetic World
By: RomanAlexander Blackpaw
In a Sympathetic World
This is a story about love. The kind of love that you dont find every day, and always look for. Sometimes you dont even know that the love of your life is right there infront of you the whole time. Until like a wilting flower it fades away, Like plumes of smoke being whisped out of existance by the cruel winds of change. I was lucky enough to find love and cherish it, finding it right under my nose. Lucas is what they called him. His name sends shivers down my spine and a warmth within my heart. I was ten years old when I met him, I had just moved into town and my mother had set up a play date with a local mom to help me make friends. I was always a nervous, cautious child. Always second guessing things, afraid of nearly anything. Naturally when I was informed of the play date knots formed in my stomach.
The whole car ride I was twiddling my thumbs and looking down at my shoes. My mother would always say "meeting friends will be good for you." I didnt believe her though. In my experience anything that seemed to good to be true usually was. We arrived at the house, hesitantly i fallowed my mother to the front door, hiding behind her dress as it opened. I heard the two of them talking but i didnt listen, the whole world seemed to stop as i met eyes with him for the first time. I was mezmerized instantly. He stood there, with the friendliest smile I'd ever seen and approached me. I squeaked a little as he stood next to me and introduced himself. "Heya! im Lucas, wanna come inside and play some video games?" All i could do was nod my head and he took me to his room.
From that point on we were the best of friends, playing together, doing homework together, we were inseperable. One day I was being picked on at school and he chased away the bullies and stood up for me. He was my hero, my savior, my best friend. We grew up together, as close as always. He made the pressures of highschool life bearable. But at that time something bothered me constantly, like a beetle burrowing through my subconcience. It was during those teenage years that I'd made a discovery, I was gay and had fallen in love with Lucas. Although when puberty hit him he was quite the athlete. Star quarter back on the football team, and was very popular. I however remained small framed, kind of nerdy, and had only him as a friend.
My delima was always in my thoughts. I'd get jealous when all the cheer leaders would be surrounding him, and I'd get horribly depressed too. "I cant tell him" I would say to myself "Theres no way He's gay and could love me like i love him." One day I couldnt take it anymore, we were hanging out, playing halo in his basement and I told him. "Your my best friend, right?" i started in a soft voice. "Yeah" he said "Why?" I took a deep breath and continued "And best friends shouldn't keep secrets right?" "Yeah bud, whats up?" he said as he paused the game and turned to face me. I felt a nervous, quivering frown stretch across my muzzle as i spoke in a shaky voice "I-m..." I trailed off, almost in tears. "What is it? you can tell me anything" He spoke in that warm voice I loved so much. My mind was racing as i shook and trembled "Im in love with you."
The room fell scilent except for the soft whimpers and sobs coming from me. "Thats it" I thought to myself, "We're through" the words echoed through my mind before something happened i hadn't expected. I felt his arms wrap around me and nis muzzle nuzzling my neck. I felt a deep blush come across my cheek, the heat soothed by his wagging tail. "I love you too" He said. i could feel his tears staining my shirt as we held each other, as mine surely stained his. From that point on we weren't only best friends, we were mates. We decided it would be best to keep it secret, our town was notorious for ignorance. We dated through highschool, through college, and even after our schooling was done. We both had jobs and got a place together.
Everything was perfect until one day i got an invitation in the mail. It was for a formal event his family was holding. I was very nervous, but the warmth and love Lucas brought me made me strong. I rented a tux and got in the car, driving to where lucas would surely meet me. The building was beautiful, stained glass windows, newly refurbished, everything that was to be expected of such a formal event. I walked inside and his mother came to greet me. "Im so happy you could make it." She said before kissing me on the cheek. "Lucas is over there waiting." I smiled and thanked her, seeing him and walking up to where he was. He was just as handsome as always, His suit was very expensive looking and his fur looked so soft. I leaned in and kissed his cheek, murring softly as i ran my fingers through his hair. Beside him was a boquet of his favorite flowers, white roses. I smiled again before getting back to my feet and stepping away from his casket. Laying my half of the heart necklace he made for us on his chest "I love you" Is all I said before turning around and heading back to my car. I drove to a park that we always went to as kids and sat on our favorite slide. I cried harder that day than I ever have.
FIN.