Two: Toma's Change

How did one get over their whole world exploding in their face? How did one get over being outed to the universe? How did one get over being with the beast they most wanted and then being tossed aside in favour of a girl? How did one get over being turned into a pathetic victim by well-meaning beings that still whispered about you behind their back? Toma's mind had been filled with these questions since the day Clint had decided the fun was over and he'd not been allowed to go back to school. He'd found himself darkening like his fur since that day, for everything else that had happened he could have pushed it aside as just being a stupid moment he'd get over, but not when it had wrecked his life and Clint couldn't even take responsibility for it!

Getting into Grandpa's household had been interesting though, there were tough jaguars in the group that weren't afraid of anything and certainly knew how to take out their anger. Where his father was encouraging him to work out with him to build muscle and focus the anger he had, grandpa had a different idea and had been letting Toma come to watch him work and not even thought to censor when someone owing money was getting shaken down. Being told with a playful wink not to mention it to his father and even being offered to suggest things they could do to hurt the figure became exciting. His grandfather was handing him control over others and though the old Toma was gentle and would never harm a fly, a sadistic streak had been awakened in Toma.

He'd still been scared though, he'd told his grandfather he was gay and his grandfather had not been best pleased but accepted that some males had other preferences. It had upset Toma to think he'd let his grandfather down like that, but a few of the leopards in the group had mixed preferences and were eager to help him feel more comfortable with himself. It was with these guys, now he was over eighteen, that Toma was taken out to a club on the other side of town that was a place frequented by homosexual, transexual, bisexual and pansexual alike to enjoy themselves. Toma was finding his companions saw him as a Top and they wanted to help him find a good Bottom to get him over his feelings of weakness... but they were also quick to give him alcohol that Toma rather enjoyed.

The nightclub was loud and exciting, there were lots of animals around that were having fun and in some nice trousers to show off his backside and a neat shirt, Toma had been brought to the bar counter to order his drink, told to relax and just feel the mood before he'd been invited up to dance by an Alsatian that was curious about the newbie. He was pulled onto the floor and quick to dance with them, talking and really enjoying himself as he was given more alcohol by a whitetail buck that came in and beckoned him over to talk. Toma being new and young was popular and the alcohol was increasing as he was cruising around, making connections and taking numbers but musing that he was not looking to go home with anyone just yet.

It was a really interesting time, but he found he was getting tired of dancing, a little irritated by the thudding mood and oddly he could not see the leopards that had brought him in. The crowd was thinning out too and there were not many canines around, which was what Toma was really interested in, and he was more than a little irritable. Somehow, the dark thoughts about not having control over this situation and that he was being too cute and would just get used like Clint used him filled his mind. He was growling in irritation, glad the music was hiding it as he sat at the bar take in some milk rather than another shot before he heard a figure with a cute and nervous voice, panting as they wobbled off the dance floor, sitting on the stool and yanking off a pair of heels with a sigh of relief.

"Phew... my feet are killing me... I can't believe they kept me dancing for two hours and hardly any alcohol was needed. Heh... phew... can I get some cream please..." The figure was panting softly, wagging a soft paw in front of their face with their big tail wagging around before Toma turned to look at them. His eyes then bulged, there was an ocelot sitting beside him, but with a dress on its body and a padded bra, let alone the heels, its hips looking a little wider and its face a little softer... Toma was shocked. The fur at the front that should have been a fringe was swept to one side with a strange wave so the bang lay straight near ears wearing several earrings. The eyes were clearly waring sour apple green contacts, the lips a slight lipstick, the nails were painted a vibrant pink to match the pink dress that looked more like a tube around the animal's body. It was clearly one of the transgender patrons, but Toma knew damn well who it was and he couldn't stop himself from saying it.

"Oh my God... Clarion?" The cream was sat down and the two figures stared eye to eye for a little while as clarity fell upon the ocelot whose eyes widened and looked rather sickened. It startled Toma too to see that the cat was practically outing themselves in this moment and then Toma could not help but grin slightly as the other opened their mouths a few time to speak but then could not bring themselves to say anything but just blush. The cat turned their face away, but Toma felt something dark fall upon him when he realised something truly terrible he could not help ask about. "So... you love Nero enough to turn into a girl whilst he's mourning his friend so you can renter his life and claim him? Isn't that technically a 'trap' or something?"

"You don't understand... besides... I'm not Clarion, my name is Gabrielle." The ocelot stated gently, swatting her tail about violently to encourage Toma to back off. The bar tender seemed to check for a moment, as far as he knew Gabrielle was a regular here lately and this panther was new... but the panther had come with trouble so he was not sure how to react. Clarion tried to keep his face turned away a little longer, but when Toma was just grinning at him, the ocelot took a soft gulp and turned to look at him nervously. "So... maybe I do like him a lot... maybe I always loved him and wished he'd look at me as what I wanted to be... I've always wanted to be a female and I'm working through it but it takes time and... and I want to surprise him. I know he won't reject me."

"Puh..." Toma felt his insides explode with fury, not only to see his own goofy manner about Clint inside Clarion's manner but also for this stupid level of optimism. How could he believe that Nero would accept him when Nero had that busty girl to play with and Toma just gave a scoff. Clarion turned to look at him softly and lowered his ears, he made a mention that Toma would understand after his own relationship, but it made Toma very angry and he had to crunch the desire to punch into a viciously insane grin as he looked towards Clarion with a sneer. "It would ruin your plans though if I said something right..."

"What!" Clarion was being foolish, he hadn't met Toma in over a year and during that time the youngster had been suffering from the worst kind of humiliation. Clarion had not exactly been of much interest to him and Toma had been similarly disinterested, but the ocelot had always seen him as a quiet and gentle figure. But seeing the way Toma's muscles for basketball now seemed to have bulged and he looked more like he was preparing to fight, Clarion's tail whipped about with anxiety as he lowered his ears, looking anxious and gulped. "What... what would you want in return?"

"Come to the bathroom, its easier to talk in there... I don't want one of grandpa's goons to overhear us and spoil it either." Toma beamed, but something wicked was building up within his body, some violent heat that he'd never experienced before that was fuelled by the desire to hurt, to control... to make someone else humiliated as he had been and Clarion was the perfect target. He slid up off the stool and beckoned him to follow as Clarion hooked up the heels from the floor, hooked them back on his feet and steadily paced after Toma, swinging his hips and tail in a sultry manner that had become as normal to him now as breathing. It intrigued Toma as he spotted his guys looking over and wrapped an arm around Clarion's waist to ensure they did not get involved and the leopard who brought him here as amused. Toma though brought Clarion into the furthest stall as the ocelot was trembling as he stared at him with a lick of his lips. "So lets be honest with each other... you and I are both gay... I like being a dude but you don't... are you even getting your dick chopped?"

"You don't have to be so derogatory... but yeah... I'm on hormones for three years, I've already been castrated and they're going to do the surgery after three years. I don't by Clarion exactly now, I legally changed my name to Gabrielle Clary. Just... just so you know that no one calls me Clarion and, I moved to medical school and told my parents about all this. They're only just starting to talk to me again because I'm getting top grades in medical school so... there were other reasons than just Nero." Gabrielle stated, trying not to sound as rude as Toma but finding that becoming firm was not possible around someone who knew the truth of who he'd been before and how his voice had dropped down to something just anxious. She lowered her head and patted at Toma's side. "Yeah, Nero told me you were in love with Clint... all of what you went through with him I could understand completely to a point... but I thought you and him were on good terms when he was visiting you after the attack..."

"Yeah, for a while I thought we were great too... funny how everything blows up in your face when a pair of tits come along." Toma scoffed, feeling a little relief in being able to say that fury out loud, it was rather funny that Clarion... Gabrielle rather... would be the one to understand. It made Gabrielle blush and nod her head in understanding, except he could not know how there were such similarities between their two experiences, only Gabrielle had been the one to abuse Nero's trust in them. Toma did not care though as he grinned at the other and then grasped hold of Gabrielle's face, feeling the smaller cat shiver and finding it oddly arousing. "So... how many cats have you let sample your wares? I mean... Nero would never believe you'd be such an eager little tart with the way you're acting today."

"I'm not acting a tart..." Gabrielle growled, slapping his paw away and about to explain that she was expressing her true self for the first time and damn proud of it. But Toma's paw was suddenly to her shoulder, pushing her back against the toilet so she slumped onto the seat with a soft growl, glaring up at the panther that was looking at him with an almost hungry expression as he licked his lips. He then leant against the stall wall, waiting for Gabrielle to be honest about her experiences. It made the smaller spotted cat drop her ears back and look a little upset, if she gave more information than it would mean he would have more to hold against him to stop Nero from knowing and Gabrielle felt suddenly awkward. "I don't want to say..."

"When I'm going to be good and keep your secret from Nero... you've got to give me something in return..." Toma stated, which made Gabrielle feel a little confused. She had a bad feeling about this situation, something was very wrong with Toma, he was not who she recalled him to be, but Toma just grinned. "Come on... I'll share a secret with you... did you know it wasn't a jackal that raped me at the gym... it was Clint under the goading of his whole squad. He actually videoed it and then blackmailed me into being his sex toy until his girlfriend was willing to go all the way with him... breaking my heart."

"Oh Toma... honey... I didn't know!" Suddenly Gabrielle's anxiety was lost in favour of sorrow and the desire to mother the poor figure. She stood up and opened her arms out, hooking around Toma and pulling him to her chest as he gave a grunt and she stroked at his back and shoulders. Having told the cat the situation, having let it out for the first time, it was shockingly good to feel... but at the same time it made him more eager to take back control and Gabrielle was just proving himself more and more to be the perfect target as he let Toma go and then patted his shoulders. "I know... when that Kayleigh turned up, suddenly Nero wasn't interested in fooling around with the girls and I thought I'd lose him. I wasn't honest to him and it took one of his girlfriends convincing him I was gay and she even got him to be my first. It was so wonderful, but I knew he'd never want to be with me again and I couldn't stand the shame... oh god, I love your brother so much!"

"Love's a bitch... isn't it..." Toma stated, but on the inside he was genuinely shocked that Nero had done that, but then if it was the hotel then it was after what had happened with him. It angered Toma furiously to think that his brother had been so affected that, as Gabrielle stated the 'did it gently so his first time was with someone who cared' was explained, that he'd made that happen. But then it hit Toma, he'd made that happen and he was quick to say it. "So my pain became your gain, huh? His sorrow for my attack... my brother is such a softy... but you didn't answer my question. Did you go with anyone else to check your feelings?"

"I have... I've had lots of sex friends but its only to numb me to what I feel in my heart. I have to keep away until I'm fully a female... then... then he'll love me..." Gabrielle whimpered, but their words had just opened to the door to something that made Toma grin in delight as he realised that he could do things to Gabrielle that would deal with his own frustrations. He smiled at his brother's old friend and then grasped hold of the bottom of his dress, pulling it right up as the ocelot grasped Toma's arms to stand up slightly. "What... what are you doing?"

"Listen to me very carefully Gabrielle... or I'll bring Nero here to see you and tell him everything." Toma stated, a hideous purr in his throat as he looked at the smaller spotted cat with a smug expression. Gabrielle gave a grimace, he did not know what was going on but he was shocked to feel the strong muscles on the jaguar-lion's arms as he pulled the dress right over the hips and then pulled Gabrielle up onto his feet, forcing him around and pressing him against the toilet seat as Gabrielle gave a slight wheeze of pain. Neither of them knew that outside, the leopard had made sure to bar the bathroom, a sign that usually meant something was happening that no one wanted to get involved in... so no one would get involved to help Gabrielle as Toma growled. "From now on... you're going to be my toy... until you become a female completely... your ass is my property, and I will make sure that when it's time, my brother will fall in love with you. But you're mine... get rid of all your sex friends and make sure that when I message you, you'll pick it up... and don't worry about school, I won't interrupt your studies because I'm only claiming Gabrielle's free time... fair, isn't it?"

"But... but... you're his baby brother! He'd never forgive me..." Gabrielle whimpered softly as her knickers were yanked right down and Toma stared in disbelief. Gabrielle had not been lying about the castration, but everything was missing and instead the flesh had been neatly arranged into the shapes that would one day form the vulva. It was rather ugly to see there had been so much altered and Toma gave a growl, knowing this must be more than a little embarrassing for Gabrielle to think of and he pulled out his phone from his pocket, taking a picture as Gabrielle gave a whimper. "NO! Don't... not like it is now..."

"Then just do what I say... its not like I'll make it painful and you'll be taken around as my girlfriend when I'm out with my entourage that work for grandfather, they'll only know you as Gabrielle so they'll speak of you to Nero and he might even get jealous.... Think about it, don't you want him to be jealous?" Toma whispered into the ocelot's ears, putting his phone away and then pulling out a condom with a second packet attached that was lube. Gabrielle went totally quiet, what could she say when so much was at risk after everything she'd worked for already? She wanted to sob over it all, but it was clear that Toma was not going to let him alone as the panther ripped the packet open and then poured it into the tight hole. It was lukewarm from being in a pocket, but still felt cold as Gabrielle jolted and her tail went right up.

Toma was grinning as he then stuffed his paws into Gabrielle's mouth, telling him to suck on them a little and Gabrielle had no choice but to suck on them. If anything made it so she lost any chance with Nero... her life would be over! But she groaned in frustration as two of Toma's digits stuffed themselves firmly in, stretching it out and crudely feeling about as Gabrielle gave a slight gag and growled at him. Toma couldn't care, it was tight inside and the fact it was uncomfortable for the other only made him more happy... how dare this cat get to have a good experience on their first time with the cat they adored... it should have been painful, awkward and filled them with dread! Toma teased and scissored his digits inside, leaving a raw heat that was not helped by the lubricant as the horrid wet squelching sounds made Gabrielle clench his teeth together with a groan. Toma then stopped being cruel and just gently began to pump with his fingers until he felt it getting a bit softer.

Gabrielle began to pant against the rhythm of the digits, grunting and sighing heavily as she felt them reaching deep but blatantly ignoring any attempt to find her prostate. She buried her face into her paw, groaning and sobbing softly as her cock became erect and she could feel her body relaxing out, used to having uncomfortable sex with other partners but not being treated so roughly before. The more she groaned and reacted, the more her backside began to suck the digits in and her hips began to jolt and thrust slightly at her air, her cock wagging about before Toma pulled his digits out with a wet pop and then calmly placing the condom on his rather broad cock as he gave a chuckle of amusement.

"Don't worry... you're actually my first... I'm a bottom too normally so, I know what feels good..." Toma grinned, almost viciously as he then brought his cock to the smaller, tighter hole that was pinching, puckering and glistening. It made Gabrielle tensed to feel the hot latex pressing at her hole and she took in a deep breath then let it out slowly enough she could relax her backside. Toma gave a grin, glad for the welcome as he pressed the head in, the stretching sensation felt good to him but better at Gabrielle gave an aggressive hiss at the sensation. When Gabrielle tried to pull herself up to swing her head around and flash teeth, Toma grasped her hip and then pushed himself in as hard as he could, causing that sharp gaging choke as he ripped his way into the half-stretched hole as Gabrielle gave a groan of frustration, though her cock was not was rigid and hard it looked close to bursting. "Its really tight... so this shouldn't take too long..."

Toma began to pull back slowly, feeling the tightening and then the relaxing that said he hit good points as Gabrielle sucked air in through her fangs. He then pressed himself in deep again, a hard thrust to make Gabrielle give a cough before he continued the slow drag. Gabrielle groaned, her cock was going to go any minute but the slow and cruel way Toma seemed to just be playing with her was awful! Toma continued the strange slow motion, watching the shivering shoulders of the still sobbing cat before he then decided to move faster. He gripped hold of Gabrielle's hips and then began to start pushing the backside to his groin hard enough his balls clapped against the thighs, hilting inside the gasping ocelot before then jerking back, almost straight out. He then went in deep again, moving faster and yet still pulling almost right out as Gabrielle gasped with definite pleasure before her cock stained the lifted toilet seat with a wet splash that made Toma chuckle....

"Let's do this properly then..." Toma growled as Gabrielle was panting softly in shock, only to then groan and grip hold of the top of the toilet as the panther began to pump himself in and out as fast as possible. Toma gripped his claws into Gabrielle's hips, making the ocelot whimper in pain as blood was drawn the harder and faster Toma began to slam himself into the animal, stuffing and forcing himself in as Gabrielle's body seemed to try and tighten to stop him coming in. But the faster he went the better it felt for Gabrielle until she was gagging and drooling in upset as she could feel that wonderful sensation of an anal orgasm starting to build and she even spread her legs for more room. Toma was thankful but said nothing, just stuffing himself in and out with that horrid wet clap as he felt the pressure building and the condom squeezing around his throbbing form.

He did no want to be wearing a condom, but he didn't know if Gabrielle was clean yet and he was going to make sure next time to do far more with Gabrielle. Next time he was going to make Gabrielle do everything that he'd had to do for Clint, but he was going to make Gabrielle sit down and beg to have cum spurted all over his face... that he'd sit there with a plug sliding out of his cheeks and letting days worth of cum pour onto the floor! He wanted to make Gabrielle suffer and the more he thought about what he was going to do, the faster he moved, the harder he pumped and Gabrielle's cock stiffened again as she gave out a groan and squeezed tightly, yowling with her dark stripe of fur standing on edge with pleasure at an orgasm.

The sudden wetness, the loosening along with the firmer clench made Toma hiss through his teeth before he then began to pump in harder and harder, moving faster and faster so their bodies were clapping, and Gabrielle's knees were bashing on the edge of the toilet! Toma groaned, he could feel the pressure building up within him, that blinding, mind-numbing pleasure starting to take over and make his mouth strain open with the desire to scream out and he hurried on and on until he felt the pressure back. With a growl he filled the condom and could even feel it shifting as if it might leak as the little inflating balloon made Gabrielle cum again suddenly. Toma groaned though, not exactly satisfied, but he pulled out with a wet schlup sound and then peeled the condom off, tying it up and then lying it on the toilet top where Gabrielle was panting and could see it.

"See... it'll be good I you play with me... now let's exchange contact information..." Toma grinned as Gabrielle just hunched her shoulders and bit back anymore desire to sob.

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_Toma really has changed... poor Clarion-Gabrielle. Things are happening all around the household as in the next chapter we check back in with Leo and Nero and then learn about how Hector and Tamsin have been fairing when he's brought to meet her family... who do not like him at all! _